The Version for Public Consumption

[xifeng]

I did have to work today, though it wasn't much; not too many courthouses are open on Veterans Day. However, I did stop at the used bookstore in Salem. SCORE! Dragged home a stupendous haul, because I am constitutionally incapable of ignoring the temptation of used bookstores. I count it as a moral failure on my part that I haven't been able to visit the one in Corydon.

Also, I spent entirely too much time screwing around on assorted genealogy sites last night and it appears that my mother's people have been in this country 300 years (previously it was believed that we were only here for about 200). I have also learnt that if you are descended from Ashkenazim, having my surname is kind of like being named Smith in that WE'RE FUCKING EVERYWHERE. Although I suppose it would be worse if my surname were Cohen or Levy or sommat.

In unrelated news: I took a bet that the bottom was going to fall out, and I'll be proven right, too. All the same, that doesn't mean I'm going to sit about and let it be shoved in my face, because unlike some of us I am not completely fucking stupid. Previous containment measures have been reinstated. [/cryptic]

I really haven't felt like being online lately, which is no doubt a promising sign. anjala, I know I owe you e-mail (I really don't want to put up my real name for the Int0rwebz to goog at, which is why I haven't replied to your comment yet), and I swear I will get to that at some point over the weekend.

Comments

[tara]

*drive by loving*

I think the extremism of it all would amuse me if it wasn't hurting you so much.

How would you like to make fun of my silly crush to take your mind off it? I have seen a picture and it made it worse *g*

[shake-the-stars.livejournal.com]

Alas! An attack of love!

On some level, I do find it hilarious, but I also find it very frustrating because I know if I say anything about it, even with language greatly modified to "unwise" rather than "really fucking stupid", this is basically like inviting the Drama Llama to come sodomize me repeatedly.

I suppose, also, it's reinforcing what I should have already known: any kind of relationship would never have a snowball's chance in hell, because it's a bit like a badly scarred war veteran being married to an adorable bouncing princess who's never known a day's hardship in her life.

Honestly, I really want to defriend her right now, but I can't do that because I can't explain why to her, at least not in any way she can understand. I'm holding out in hopes that I will be able to get over it. (You are very glad you can't see the private entry that followed this one.)

In short, HAY U R PRETY PLZ B MY REBOUND RELASHUNSHIP. :D ♥

I would love to mock your silly crush. I am sure Jennifer Saunders feels cheated on. ;)

[tara]

OH NOES! RUN AND HIDE!

I think that's always the problem when people are in the first throes of such things. Any attempt to be remotely serious is countered with angst to the nth degree, which is not fun to be on the end of at any point in time.

Sometimes opposites attract, but they rarely work out in the long term, especially when the opposite part of thing is directly related to what you want out of life. This is a sad but true fact :(

You will get over it, simply because that's what we do in life. It chucks crap at us, the crap knocks us over for a while, but then we brush it off and go on with our lives. But keeping someone around is never inducive to getting over them, I find. Perhaps an altered reading filter is the best temporary move while you wait for things to go BOOM.

WHAT? ARE YOU SAYING OUR LOVE WASN'T SODOOMED ALL ALONG?????

Not only cheated on, but cheated on with a girl more than half her age!!

[shake-the-stars.livejournal.com]

ALAS! THE LOVE IS COMING TO TAKE US AWAY!!!!

And I'm sure whatever sap 'n crap was included in the angst would just make me want to projectile vomit. I realize it is arrogant of me to speak for another person, and it's entirely possible that maybe, just maybe, the bottom might NOT fall out (in which case my anger would eventually magically transform into lots and lots of pity), but ODDS ARE it won't last till Thanksgiving.

And if it does, well, I'll just reset D-Day. ;)

I know I'll get over it, simply because I got over the others before her, and I don't really feel inclined to sit around and mope and not properly live my life. I'm still friendly with other people I've wanted to get over, but in one case we were out of contact for a few months (more out of life-in-general than for any other reason) and in the other, for three years.

WELL, YES, BUT IT NEVER SEEMED TO BE THE RIGHT TIME TO SAY ANYTHING AND I RATHER FIGURED YOU MIGHTN'T WANT TO GO OUT WITH ME!!!!1111

Oh, Tara, you cradle-robber!

[tara]

SOUND THE ALARM!

It's probably something to keep in mind for the next time you feel like a nice projectile vomit all over the place *g*

If the bottom doesn't fall out, then they will be the most boring pair ever. I read it more like someone saying what needs to be said to get as far as possible, myself, but then I'm a cynical bitch, so who knows.

The other possibility is that it might just help you change the feelings into something less intense, so that you can still have those feelings, but in a less overwhelming way. If that makes sense at all!

WOE! ALTHOUGH THE PACIFIC OCEAN IS STILL A PRICK.

That would involve me being able to steal her, surely?

[shake-the-stars.livejournal.com]

WARNING: LOVE HAS BEEN SPOTTED. DO NOT APPROACH. CALL AUTHORITIES.

There's nothing quite as cathartic as spewing!

Y'know, I hadn't thought of that, but YES. As to second statement: from what she's said, it appears that he has so far been respectful of her boundaries, and I don't know the guy so I'm not really in any position to speak to what he is or is not doing. Then again, I was a boy once myself, and I distinctly recall my own plans for girls. (Also frankly I just sometimes want to scream, "O HAY I HAVE HAD SEX, SOME OF IT KINKY, WITH MORE THAN ONE PERSON, SO ANYTHING YOU CAN THINK OF TO DO WITH YOUR LIPS IS RATHER ANTICLIMACTIC YO.")

On the getting-over-things side, I really need to write a proper letter to my!H, one that isn't "O HAY CAN'T TALK NOW WILL WRITE LATER".

OMG WHAT IF I MOVED TO HAWAII????

I thought that was the point? ;)

[tara]

THERE IS A LOVE WARNING CURRENT FOR ALL COASTAL AREAS.

I just got the impression that he was a bit of a player from comments previously made about him not being seen as worthy by the mother and the ex. Hopefully I have completely the wrong end of the stick, however, because there are very few things worse than that kind of pressure, if it should happen in the future. (I personally read it and thought that obviously I had been doing something very wrong, because for me, kissing is a bore most of the time.)

Other crushes do wonders for such things. At least, I find they do, and I have about four crushes at any one time, so I should know *g*

THERE WOULD STILL BE PACIFIC OCEAN. AND, ALSO, YOU WOULD BE IN HAWAII.

Not with this one. I'm rather over dating teenagers, at least in a serious sense. Also, her straightosity might get in the way of me doing naughty things to her, which would be a shame.

[shake-the-stars.livejournal.com]

LOVE IS RADIOACTIVE AND MAY LEAD TO MUTATIONS IF INGESTED OR TRANSDERMALLY ABSORBED. FOLLOW PROPER CONTAINMENT PROCEDURES.

Honestly, I don't know what to think, because all my information about him only comes from the one source, and it's far from unbiased. I don't think anyone is that wonderful and magical, and I don't think he's an exception either. (Yeah, I don't find kissing all that remarkable either unless it leads on to other things, the quicker the better. And I emphatically don't want to hear about other people's hawtt st33my makeout sessions or whatever. I don't care if they do it, but Gawd, fucking spare me or something.)

I did subsequently write that proper!e-mail *g* Also I have Christkindlmarkt to console and cheer me, and the fact that if I get off my duff ever, there will be PIE. Delicious sweet PIE. (We were supposed to have PIE for m0mmy's birthday, but it is very labor-intensive PIE and would have taken about three hours and I was just not up to it following a 3-hour drive south from Brazil.)

BUT THERE WOULD BE LESS PACIFIC OCEAN! AND I CAN'T AFFORD TO STALK YOU ALL THE WAY TO AUSTRALIA. HOW WOULD I SUPPORT MYSELF THERE?

Straightosity is a bit of a bugger that way, isn't it.

[tara]

OOH. TOXIC AVENGER FLASHBACK!

I think I'm mostly going by the stuff at the beginning about certain family members having an issue with him. Because, experience has told me that they usually know what they're talking about.

(My experience with kissing is that, unless it involves my neck, it is rather dull *g*)

Hurrah for proper emails. I owe those thingies to you, Cat and Dom, because I'm an evil person. But I'm still dead of Latin right now.

YOU COULD SUPPORT YOURSELF BY COOKING PIE FOR PEOPLE!

It is. But the last thing I need right now is a proper relationship, and it's fun to squee when I get a comment from her *g*

[shake-the-stars.livejournal.com]

HUZZAH!

I read anyway today and am hoping that today's post is symptomatic of Trouble In Paradise, though I know that if anybody is going to catch flack it's liable to be me. Am I a horrible person for wanting someone's relationship to fail, and preferably to fail spectacularly?

(I will keep that in mind in case I am ever in a position to use that information *g*)

I know. But it's okay ♥

BUT THEN THEY MIGHT EAT IT ALL!

Proper relationships are rather overrated anyway, but comment!squeeing is fun :)

[tara]

*runs off to read* It is, at least, far less vomit inducing than many previous ones *g*

(*lol* I do however, think hickies are disgusting, so that information is worth filing away as well)

I am teh slack0r!

THEN YOU COULD COOK MORE PIE! HURRAH FOR MULTIPLE PIES!

Ha, so very true. They're only fun before they actually start. The chase is a thousand times better than the reality of it all.