in which Lee indulges an inside joke

[xifeng]

Speeshul note for augustuscaesar, because some of her "friends" smell like butt and she needs cheering up:

DING DING DING! WE HAVE A WINNAR

(Actually, this should have been up yesterday, but you know.)

Comments

[tara]

Haha, I saw that :D

Also, the talking marks are well deserved.

[shake-the-stars.livejournal.com]

Are not all my prophecies ineffably fated to come true? (Don't answer that.) I said it wouldn't last till Christmas.

That is because they are not your real friends D:

[tara]

Plz predict fame and fortune for Tara. kthx

Yeah, exactly. And I'm actually less upset about that than the mark I received yesterday, because classics is meant to be my future, whereas they are not. But still. I wish someone would just hand me something that told me where I'm meant to go from here. Because something has to change, but I'm not entirely sure what and how.

[shake-the-stars.livejournal.com]

*waves hands spookily over crystal ball* The Insidious Madame Lee predicts...the adulation of bazillions! Also money, lots of.

Well, for starters, I'd suggest defriending them. I realize you've been chary of this because of the potential drama-osity, but frankly, this is more dramatic than anything you'd think of to do. (I assume you were going to forego spray-painting "EMO TEARS OF BLOOD AND WOE AND ANGST AND THAT D:" in ten-foot-high letters on their workplaces.)

The fact that you're exerting more effort on H than she on you speaks volumes, and if this is the same Steph you told me was Not To Be Trusted, well then.

Feel free to chunk my two cents in the gutter if you like *g*

[tara]

Hurrah!

It's the obvious solution, isn't it? I'm just scared, though. That they'll ring me and stuff and send emails and just... pretty much everything Allegra did. I've taken them off my reading list at the moment, but I know that's not a permanent solution :/

No, you're right and I know you are. I just wish I didn't have to do any of it.

[shake-the-stars.livejournal.com]

I wish you didn't have to do any of it either :(

They might surprise you by not doing anything. I don't know how in-character that is, since I don't know either of them, but it's always a possibility. Besides, this has been a gradual thing; there's been time for them to mend, if they were going to.

Not to feed your paranoia, but if M's presence at the birthday!bash (because yes I am a creepy stalker who reads comments, hello Tara I am going through your trash even as we speak) were the main or sole reason you weren't invited, and you were really wanted there, they would have found a way around it. I have friends who can't stand each other; I don't just not hang out with someone because it might piss off someone else.

Bleh. Shut up, Lee.

[tara]

There needs to be some kind of spell that makes things go BAM! and disappear entirely.

Um, well, H isn't one known for sitting back and taking stuff. S is more likely to just make snide comments about me where I can see them - I know this because she's done it in the past.

Oh, that's not feeding my paranoia, hun. That I already knew. If they wanted to include me, they'd have done two things. It's not as though they're not doing social life stuff most days of the week anyway, so if they wanted to do stuff with me and M, they'd have done two things.

[shake-the-stars.livejournal.com]

Word. I can think of a lot of things I would make go BAM! and disappear.

See under "Lee obviously does not know either one of them". However, there does seem to be a bit of a double standard here in that you're supposed to sit back and take it but H won't. I mean, seriously, you have mutual friends: did they think this wouldn't get back to you?

Ugh. It's a bloody fucking mess. I wish I had an amusingly doodle-shaped wand that would make it all go away AND make you laugh at the same time.

[tara]

Oh totally. Many many.

Oh yes. Total double standard. I'm supposed to be hopelessly devoted to them. That's the part of it I just don't understand. I mean, if they actually liked me, they'd make an effort. It reminds me a little of the people who join a gajillion RPGs as the same character, just so no one else can play 'their' charry... and then are hopelessly inactive in all of them. I feel like I'm supposed to stick around just to make them feel good about themselves or sommat.

I wish you had a doodle shaped wand too, and not the sort you can buy at adulttoys.com. (I have no idea if that is actually a site, but it sounds like it should be.) A mess describes it exactly. I'm biding my time at the moment, but something will happen eventually. If I can find the balls.

[shake-the-stars.livejournal.com]

Yeah, we're all out of high school now; if they want to have a little clique going on, they're welcome to it, but you should be excused from playing if you don't want to. Besides, it's not your job to boost their self-esteem.

I was going to say *g*. (I think it is a site. Not that I know anything about that kind of thing.)

Here is a heart for you: ♥

[tara]

Exactly. I just wish they'd stop being bitchy about me one moment and commenting politely on my entries the next. It's almost like they're trying to fuck with me on purpose.

I clicked the gmail link that it made, and it's just a place holder site, I think. Sadness.

Thank you for the heart :)

[forgottensanity.livejournal.com]

Awww. *squees at Lee's new LJ layout* It's so cuddly and nonthreatening! And there are no annoying blinkies either.

[shake-the-stars.livejournal.com]

You have LJ's wide selection of default layouts to blame for this. Besides, looks can be deceiving. ^_-

They also have kitty layouts. :D