Up And Down, Up And Down

[xifeng]

Good things:
+ Have an arm full of Depo from this morning.
+ Most of the snow has melted off.
+ Weather in Bloomington is supposed to be good this Saturday, so maybe I can finally go up for the first time this year! :DDDD
+ My doctor got my lab work back and my Pap is normal. (Yeah, I know, it was really stupid of me to think it might be otherwise, since I have no history of abnormal Pap and none of the major risk factors for cervical cancer. Still, that's one less thing to worry about.)
+ I am about due for an oil change and I can actually afford to have the transmission flushed like I want to without worrying about where the money is going to come from.
+ I made up all but half an hour of the two and a half hours I was out this week to go to the doctor's. (You can only make up two hours per pay period, but hey.)

Bad things:

+ duokinneas is hurting and there is nothing I can do about it.
+ While my Pap was normal, my bloodwork was less pleasing. Basically: I have PCOS, which includes an insulin resistance component. I'm not diabetic, and I'm not even pre-diabetic (I'm pretty sure that word would have been used if I were), but my doctor wants to ramp up the metformin and see how I do on the higher dose. I am trying not to overreact, since this happened once before and I later went back to the lower dose, but I flatly refuse to have diabetes. (The variant that runs in my family is Type I, which I likely would have already been diagnosed with if I were going to have it, but having Type II is not relevant to my interests, which include "not opening the Pandora's box of Christawful shit that comes along with the disease".) So: the food is getting restricted (partially for that reason, and partially to avoid the unpleasant gastrointestinal side effects that can come along with the metformin), and I have to get back on the exercise wagon. Jaysus, I just love the irony here: "You guys I am ttly restricting my diet so I don't have to restrict it later!" If momo has nothing better to do, she should feel free to nag me about physical activity and demand to see a list of what I ate that day. So should anyone else who has nothing better to do. Anyway, I'm going to start on the increased dosage of metformin and try to drop a few more pounds before I go back for bloodwork in May. I have a long way to go before it'll make a lot of difference, but at least it's something I can do.
+ We haven't been to the store yet. OH NOES.


All in all, more good than bad.

Comments

[duokinneas.livejournal.com]

There is nothing anyone can do about it, but I'll force myself to be strong! ♥

As for the PCOS-related news, that blows so much dick it might as well be a back alley hustler. But! You've been losing weight and it sounds like you're already on the right track as far as fighting off any potential diabetes bullshit. I'm no medicinal expert but it sounds as if you're well-prepared to take care of yourself and force your body to obey your commands, at least to a certain degree. And even a little bit of difference keeps the control in your hands!

Mmmm, sweet Depo. ;D

[shake-the-stars.livejournal.com]

*snuggles all seahorses* ♥ I heard ukes are made of fluffy love. I think it's true.

Yeah, but it blows less dick than, say, it would if I actually were diabetic or if I were in imminent danger of getting that way. I just don't want things to get worse. (I was pretty good today until I came home, whereupon I took a nap, woke up, and didn't feel like making dinner, whereupon I had some bananas and yogurt...and string cheese and cookies. At least most of the junk food is gone. Also: tomorrow is another day.) Shift and control, shift and control: the two keys that summarize l33. ^_-

Remove your leechlike suckers from my injection site at once. The Depo is for me, not for you to snack on. ;D ♥

[daturabelle.livejournal.com]

i can understand the anxiety about pap tests.
i've had abnormal ones, the first three of them i ever had.
and yes, it's scary, but a relief these days when things come back normal...

[shake-the-stars.livejournal.com]

Oh, God, that would be scary. I know "abnormal" doesn't necessarily mean "cancerous" or even "precancerous", but I would be scared too. But yeah, it's always nice to let your breath out.